After two years where life in general has been quite trying for me, I have found myself revisiting my decision to homeschool on several occasions. Truth be told, I have strongly contemplating quitting more than once. There are quite a few reasons why I refuse to quit though, no matter what the cost or how rough things get. Whether you are contemplating homeschool, transitioning into homeschooling, or a seasoned pro at homeschooling, I would like to share those reasons with you today. Who knows, maybe you need them too.
Why I First Decided to Homeschool
My homeschool journey began simply with a conviction in my heart that this was what Most High wanted me to do. I didn’t really have any other “why” than that, and, at the time, I didn’t need one. The desires of my Creator were enough for me. As I began to homeschool my children though, while simultaneously listening to the stories from other parents about what was going on in the school I had just pulled them out of, my list of reasons why I needed to homeschool my children continued to grow and grow until it was painfully clear that we would never be able to walk into a traditional K-12 school again.
I then proceeded to connect with several support and fellowship type groups for homeschooling moms and began to amass tons of resources, all with grand plans on how I was going to do this thing called education. I was convinced that I knew exactly what my children needed and how to give it to them. I mean, really, my mom was a college level educator and administrator and I had been a mentor for years and was beginning my life-coaching business. I knew it would be challenging, but I was certain it would be manageable.
Why I Must KEEP Deciding to Homeschool
Then life got crazy. I became the caregiver for my uncle, and then my dad. Finances flipped upside down and I ended up with a job outside the home. And to top it off, every time my kids would get upset about something, their first response would be that they wanted to go back to public school. My house was turning into a war zone, and it felt like I was losing. I began to feel like they would be better off in school, as if the education they would receive and the structure they would get would be better for them.
Each time I would go through these thoughts, however, something else would come to light about our local school system and/or another reason why they needed to be at home receiving the education they were being given would surface and my conviction would be renewed all over again. My passion however, was dwindling more and more every day in the back and forth emotion of the whole thing. Finally, all my conviction was good for was giving me the basic energy to go through the motions and give the bare minimum to the situation.
Why I Will Always Decide to Homeschool
You would think with all of that I would just quit, right. I mean obviously this is not my comfort zone or anywhere near my thriving space…at least that’s what it sounds and looks like. What homeschooling has taught me more than anything though is that life is best lived outside of your comfort zone. Doing so teaches you how to thrive no matter what space you are in.
I still needed something to cultivate in me a passion that would not die. I still needed reasons that would shake off any negative thing that came my way. So this year…when I got married right before the school year started and then subsequently had to increase my care to my dad, shaking up the start the year, and then the curriculum I picked turned out not to work for us in the way I thought it would after only six week…I made it my mission to come up those reasons, write them down, and read them often.
I reviewed all the reasons I had accumulated in my head over the last few years and prayed for direction. The reasons had to be strong enough to help me hold on to my joy and disperse my guilt for good. Finally, I was able to narrow it down to three reasons I would be able to hold on to through the next 8 years and beyond.
1. Indoctrination. I have made a great deal of changes in my life over the last five years, the most enlightening being becoming Torah observant and becoming an activist. They have allowed me to see and experience just how many ways people are indoctrinated to someone else’s truth each and every day, beginning at childhood. Let’s face it. There are very few places where the average person is encourages to explore Creation with the Creator for themselves and draw their own conclusions. My children will have that chance, the change to discover the unique Truth Created just for them. This includes everything from how polices and the economy should work to what constitutes entertainment, and far beyond. Every aspect of life should be unique to you, and I intend to give my kids the opportunity to discover that.
2. Culture. I believe that every child should be presented with a clear and accurate view of their ancestry and heritage. It is the kind of knowledge that gives us roots and imbues us with the internal fortitude to believe that we can achieve great and wonderful things. The perseverance of generations, no matter how meek they may be, have a way of keeping you from getting complacent in life. I mean after all, if you are talking about them then one day someone will be talking about you. The only place my children will receive the kind of education that provides that is at home and through intention efforts to introduce them to communities drenched in our heritage. More than that, however, homeschooling is the only option that keeps them for being taught falsehoods about their heritage, the kind that break them down inside instead of building them up.
3. Faith. I have an uncommon view on teaching Faith. I believe that Yah and His Way are found, not taught. I believe, just as I do with spreading the gospel, that our main teaching and sharing tool is the way we live our lives and the way we interact with others. With children there is also the added duty to give them the opportunity to learn and giving them the tools they will need to navigate their Faith journey. So far me, Faith education is about keeping children in an environment where Faith thrives and expectations are rooted in Scripture. There is no school that will provide that. It will either focus on the ways of religion or focus on the ways of man, leaving no room for a child to explore Faith.
I hope this has helped you dig into some things that help you walk in confidence in the education decisions that you have made for your family. Be blessed on your journey beloved!
Surrendered to HIM~